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captain_slinky) wrote2008-11-12 08:54 am
captain_slinky) wrote2008-11-12 08:54 am
Why am I feeling better, but not any better?
It's scary how much of my illness is psychological. And I *know* it's all in my head, too, even when it's happening!
When it was possibly my heart or my Lap Band, those things seemed URGENT. It was a rush to the emergency room and an emergency trip to see Dr. Billings to make sure I wasn't gonna die. But once those two things were taken off the table, I suddenly felt great! None of the symptoms were gone, but somehow now I could deal with them. They're not even gonna check for Gallstones till FRIDAY? Must not be very bad, then... if it were bad I would have been RUSHED to the hospital IMMEDIATELY, right?
So last night I did as good as I could. And it was weird. All the pain and dizziness and nausea was still there... headache still drilling my head, chest still tight and breath getting shorter every time I stood up... but because it wasn't so "Life Threatening" any more I just kinda ignored it.
But today the nausea is REALLY kicking in. Not hungry any more, that's for sure :( I hope I can get back to wherever I was last night with this so i can just get something DONE.
When it was possibly my heart or my Lap Band, those things seemed URGENT. It was a rush to the emergency room and an emergency trip to see Dr. Billings to make sure I wasn't gonna die. But once those two things were taken off the table, I suddenly felt great! None of the symptoms were gone, but somehow now I could deal with them. They're not even gonna check for Gallstones till FRIDAY? Must not be very bad, then... if it were bad I would have been RUSHED to the hospital IMMEDIATELY, right?
So last night I did as good as I could. And it was weird. All the pain and dizziness and nausea was still there... headache still drilling my head, chest still tight and breath getting shorter every time I stood up... but because it wasn't so "Life Threatening" any more I just kinda ignored it.
But today the nausea is REALLY kicking in. Not hungry any more, that's for sure :( I hope I can get back to wherever I was last night with this so i can just get something DONE.