Guilt

[captain_slinky]

Guilt that "The Incident" at work means I won't be getting a bonus this year.

Guilt that the guy whom "The Incident" involved aparently quit his job and moved away over "The Incident".

Guilt that I didn't get up at 4 with The Baby last night to just let khristle sleep.

Guilt that khristle spent the evening and morning vomiting.

Guilt that I spent all my convention money already and can't come up with more in time for a proper convention.

Guilt that I already bought the tickets.

Guilt that my Mom and my Sister had to come down to help out because Wife and Baby are both sick.

Guilt that my Mom and my Sister will be stuck in our tiny apartment at least over night with no real place to sleep.

Guilt I didn't do my job and make khristle get up every two hours and feed Molly.

Guilt that Molly isn't gaining weight like she should be.

Guilt that I get to come to work for 8 hours a day for a "break" from the new baby.

Guilt when I want to use my non-work time for stuff that I can't do from work.

Guilt that I haven't kept the apartment clean.

Guilt that I haven't kept the kitty litter boxes clean.

Guilt that I sleep too much.

Guilt that I don't want to do more Overtime for Work.

Shame that I feel so much guilt.

Comments

[captain-slinky.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, she pumps. She's just not getting much :(

[erinjanelle.livejournal.com]

Aaaw, that's hard! I had a hard time getting much milk too, to the point that I gave up. Kudos to you guys for sticking it out to give her the best she can get!

Have you maybe contacted La Leche? They help breastfeeding moms and sometimes will send people out to your house.

[captain-slinky.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah she's all about the Le Leche League :) We're making it, it's just hard. See, she doesn't weant to skip a feeding because it supposedly decreases the milk production.

It's so hard!

[erinjanelle.livejournal.com]

I cna imagine it's got to feel nearly impossible! And poor Khristle probably doesn't feel like she's getting any sleep, because waking up every 2 hours is not very restful.

All my hugs and extra rest are willed your way!