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captain_slinkyGuilt that "The Incident" at work means I won't be getting a bonus this year.
Guilt that the guy whom "The Incident" involved aparently quit his job and moved away over "The Incident".
Guilt that I didn't get up at 4 with The Baby last night to just let![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
khristle sleep.
Guilt thatkhristle spent the evening and morning vomiting.
Guilt that I spent all my convention money already and can't come up with more in time for a proper convention.
Guilt that I already bought the tickets.
Guilt that my Mom and my Sister had to come down to help out because Wife and Baby are both sick.
Guilt that my Mom and my Sister will be stuck in our tiny apartment at least over night with no real place to sleep.
Guilt I didn't do my job and makekhristle get up every two hours and feed Molly.
Guilt that Molly isn't gaining weight like she should be.
Guilt that I get to come to work for 8 hours a day for a "break" from the new baby.
Guilt when I want to use my non-work time for stuff that I can't do from work.
Guilt that I haven't kept the apartment clean.
Guilt that I haven't kept the kitty litter boxes clean.
Guilt that I sleep too much.
Guilt that I don't want to do more Overtime for Work.
Shame that I feel so much guilt.
Guilt that the guy whom "The Incident" involved aparently quit his job and moved away over "The Incident".
Guilt that I didn't get up at 4 with The Baby last night to just let
khristle sleep.Guilt that
khristle spent the evening and morning vomiting.Guilt that I spent all my convention money already and can't come up with more in time for a proper convention.
Guilt that I already bought the tickets.
Guilt that my Mom and my Sister had to come down to help out because Wife and Baby are both sick.
Guilt that my Mom and my Sister will be stuck in our tiny apartment at least over night with no real place to sleep.
Guilt I didn't do my job and make
khristle get up every two hours and feed Molly.Guilt that Molly isn't gaining weight like she should be.
Guilt that I get to come to work for 8 hours a day for a "break" from the new baby.
Guilt when I want to use my non-work time for stuff that I can't do from work.
Guilt that I haven't kept the apartment clean.
Guilt that I haven't kept the kitty litter boxes clean.
Guilt that I sleep too much.
Guilt that I don't want to do more Overtime for Work.
Shame that I feel so much guilt.
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Date: 2006-03-09 03:35 am (UTC)mine are as follows
guilt that i work 10plus hours a day
guilt that i sleep so hard when i am home i dont even hear Mina crying
guilt that i cant help my son with is science project, which we all love doing
guilt that i havent spent any quality time with hubby
guilt that mina grows so much and im missing so much, that i actually took a double take becuse she looked so different.
just thought id throw out the message your not alone
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Date: 2006-03-09 03:54 am (UTC)Welcome to my Pitty Party! Your table is right this way!
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Date: 2006-03-09 04:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-09 05:02 am (UTC)Really, thank you :)
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Date: 2006-03-09 05:00 am (UTC)Guilt that I've been making you get up with Molly in the middle of the night even though I don't have a job
Guilt that I didn't keep the apartment clean
Guilt that I haven't taken over cat boxes again now that I can and don't have a job
Guilt that I don't cook dinner for you
Guilt that I called your mom to come help
Guilt that I feel better but they are still here
Guilt that you feel guilty about making me get up every 2 hours
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Date: 2006-03-09 05:05 am (UTC)Besides, *your* Guilty List is null and void until Molly hits the two-month mark. Sorry, no exceptions. Your ONLY tasks at this time are (1) Make milk and (2) Sleep. You've been doing WAY too much stuff already, which is yet ANOTHER thing I have to feel guilty about!
Don't try to out-guilt me, lady... you'll never win!
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Date: 2006-03-09 06:01 am (UTC)Oh, wait. :P
I've got you beat
Date: 2006-03-09 09:49 am (UTC)Guilt over the fact that anything I do or have done since dec 8th 2005 seems to be killing me or my wife
Guilt that all I do is sleep, work, and spend time with her while she is on life support, anything else, like eating, is only done while I do one of those three things or on the way to one of those
Guilt that I am not maintaining my health or life or sanity while she is losing hers or trying to regain it, so I can be there for or with her as much as possible
Guilt that if I am for or with her as much as I want, I am giving up sleep or work, and I can't lose my job because then she loses the health insurance that pays for the life support, and I shouldn't lose my sleep because I can feel my reserves are way too low and I could be on life support myself if it keeps up, but I can't not be with her
Guilt that every time work or sleep overtakes me so much I cannot be with her, her health seems to take a turn for the worse
Guilt that I am even typing this in or thinking of this stuff or not thinking of it as much as I should
disengaging thinking now...
Good night! :)
Re: I've got you beat
Date: 2006-03-09 11:31 am (UTC)And as a technicality, I now get to *add* to my list "Guilt over thinking my problems are so high-and-mighty when a new found friend has a loved one on Life Support"! And you know why? Because this is *MY* Pitty-Party!
Help yourself to cake and punch while I go get you a hat :)
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Date: 2006-03-09 06:28 pm (UTC)Oh, and I go to work for a break from my kids too.
Have you folks tried having Khristle pump her breastmilk so that you can all help with feedings?
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Date: 2006-03-09 08:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-09 09:23 pm (UTC)Have you maybe contacted La Leche? They help breastfeeding moms and sometimes will send people out to your house.
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Date: 2006-03-09 09:41 pm (UTC)It's so hard!
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Date: 2006-03-09 09:55 pm (UTC)All my hugs and extra rest are willed your way!
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Date: 2006-03-10 01:39 am (UTC)