Broken

Does anybody know of a good Atitude Adjustment Technician in the area? It seems that my Self Pitty/Woe Switch is stuck in the "on" position, and it's really becoming a pain. There are very few things I can think of any more that don't cause me to start wallowing. My Job (great pay, fun work, excellent bennefits, but crappy hours that keep me isolated from everyone I know. Is it worth it?) My Family & Friends (I have no time for either group... will they even remember me if I ever get on to a schedule where I can see them again?) My Goals (two major life goals that contradict eachother, have to choose one or the other, but doing so really hurts), My Weight (I'm so done with even trying to lose weight, it's just frustrating).

...And the fact that I'm just a whiney little bitch. That part sucks, too.

Feeling a bit better

khristle called me very shortly after my last post to make me feel better like a god schmoopie is supposed to do and she is so sweet!

And my Mother e-mailed me words of encouragement as well, which was awfully nice and unexpected!

And dotgirlcalled me to invite me out on the town with them and theirs tnight at GameWorks. That one was the ne tha boosted me completely up and out of the *total* woe and in to mild boo-hoo pitty for myself. I mean, I'm still not sure if I want to go, but being invited was a real boost! But if you go out with people who were going out to have fun and you're still in full-on Pitty mode, doesn't that just make it more pittiful?

Still not sure what I want to do tonight, but now at least I *want* to do smeting tonight :)