017 - Stop Listening

Just about three weeks into the New Year and 90% of my resolutions remain a complete shambles. Have tried rebooting a half-dozen times, no luck. It's depressing, and has lead to a downward spiral (you should be familiar with those by now). I'm so lucky to have Crystal, she refused to let me wallow in my self-loathing (regardless of how big a jerk I get to be when I'm depressed, pushing away and dismissing her words every step of the way), and in the end I went to bed last night feeling less terrible, all because of *her*. I love her a lot :)

I woke up with the same, defeated, worthless feeling. All the "Why am I even doing this"
and "None of this matters" and "Nobody cares because this is stupid and you're worthless" voices were back. But then I remembered something that I attribute to Wil Wheaton (I don't think he's the one who originally said it, but he's where I heard it from):

"Depression is a liar. Don't listen to anything it says."

And OH MY GAWD that's just so perfect for me right now! You never realize it while it's happening because Depression does an uncanny impression of Truth you can never tell the difference because it's too late! "Why are you even doing this", "This sucks", "You're wasting your time on this", "Just accept that you've failed"...

I'm on to you, Depression! You can't lie to me any more! Not today, at least... today I'm gonna be back on my projects, back on my schedule, and I'm just not going to listen to you! Paint your face blue and say your name backwards, I BANISH YOU TO THE FIFTH DIMENSION YOU TRICKSTER!

018 - Counting My Successes

Going to look back on my 30 (THIRTY!) New Year's Resolutions here and list out the ones I have managed to stick with. I haven't actually counted these things yet, was just listening to Mister Myxyzptlk tell me how much a failed. SO this post may end on a positive or negative note; my hope is for at least 5 of the 30 Resolutions to still be valid.

And so, in no particular order, THE RESOLUTIONS I KEPT (SO FAR):

- Get My Family Out Of The House More. Despite a bit of staggering, we've made it out a handful of times to do things that we normally would not have done - the most recent of which having been to go out for Ice Cream last night! I consider this one viable due to vague wording of the original resolution :)

- Kinda Vegetarian. My goal was to take the meatless option whenever a non-obnoxious version was available, and I have done this *perfectly*. Which goes hand in hand with the other one I just saw that I have followed through with...

- Cooking Lighter. I *almost* cooked one of my cop-out heavy dishes the other night (Cheesy Spanish Rice) and was thwarted by a lack of ambition. Good thing, too, as it would have had HAMBURGER in it, which would have also knocked out my "Kinda Vegetarian" accomplishment as well!

- Ten Bucks A Week. So far so good on this one, I'm even ten bucks ahead! WOO!

I also have these following resolutions as "Too Soon To Tell" and/or "Ongoing" resolutions that can't be called complete failures yet:

Organize storage unit
Organize Lamp Making materials
Organize Comic Book Collection
Minimize kitchen clutter
Do four "shows" this year (craft, comic, etc)
Twelve lamps this year
Make a YouTube Video with Molly
Finish "Reaper's Bridge"
Finish two other games


YEEP! That's only *four confirmed*... but with NINE potentially viable resolutions still going, by golly this just might work! I'm making a note here, HUGE SUCCESS!

019 - MEAT RANKINGS

A descending order list of meats, ranking their level of severity from SERIOUS MEAT to NOT MEAT AT ALL. Exotic and/or weirdo meats will not be listed, so please spare me your comment of "You forgot to list CAT HUR HUR HURRRR!" You are indeed very clever for having thought up ______ as a meat I did not list, kudos to you :)

- BEEF
- PORK
- LAMB
- TURKEY
- CHICKEN
- EGGS
- NOTHING AT ALL
- TOFU
- BEANS
- MUSHROOMS
- LEAFY GREEN VEGETABLES
- FRUIT

Anybody have any objections to these rankings?