088 - Focus (Unfocused)

[captain_slinky]

I have entirely too many thinks going through my head right now - well, for like the past WEEK, actually - that are keeping me from being focused on any one think and it's making me MISERABLE. Emerald City Comic Con and Easter are over and done, so THOSE are out of my head... but there's still five dozen more things going around in my head that I need to focus on in short-term and long-term ways, and I only have one thinker-thing in my head to spread over all of them!

Last night I dreamed of opening a Comic Book Store, and it was wonderful; I was focused. One enjoyable purpose that my life was revolving around. I woke up realizing that the reason I'm not "into" modern comics is because it hurts too much; every time I read comics it just reminds me that they aren't a part of my life any more. Better to read the old ones so i can remember when they *were* my life.

Whoa... I think I might be depressed. Damnit! I thought I was just stressed! But look at that what I just wrote - that's some real Black-Sweatpants-And-Ice-Cream-Couch-Day stuff right there!

AAAARGH! I don't have TIME to be depressed right now! This SUCKS! I have too much to do! I promised myself that next time I saw even a *glimmer* of depression I was finally going to call a doctor and get myself some counseling or something, and I went for MONTHS without depression! WHY NOW?!?!?!

This is VERY inconvenient :(

Comments

[khristle.livejournal.com]

We'll get through this Brian, we always do. For me, it helps to now dwell on it. I know you are different though and if you need to embrace it, I'll support you. do you want me to set up an appointment?

[man-of-snows.livejournal.com]

Hang in there and call a professional dammit!