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113 - Resolution of Clarity
Aug. 25th, 2016 08:36 amI am resolved to stay here till I receive a definitive sign. Way I figure it, this life - regardless of if it is real, reward, or bribe - is perfectly crafted for me as a life I once thought I would never, ever have. A wife, a kid, a nice place to live, a tight-knit network of friends, a financial standing that barely covers all our basic needs and challenges us to make sacrifices if we want any extras (like vacations or new consumer products). Comfort, with enough poverty to remain humble and enough prosperity to motivate. Perfect.
When/if I started adventuring with Sol and Brown, we all *knew* that I was going to die alone at age 25. It wasn't my *destiny* or anything, it just... was. Shortly after they left me on the airfield, I started getting *real* friends, a real job, a real life... my 25th birthday came and I spent the next 365 days knowing that somewhere in this 25th year i was going to die.
It didn't happen.
Against all odds, I found an absolutely perfect wife living in a completely different State - enough like me and different from me to be not only my wife, but my best friend. My fate had somehow been swapped with the fate of someone else, that's the only explanation.
I think Sol and Brown did this for me.
If this is REAL LIFE, there's nothing I can do about it.
If this is a gift from Sol and Brown, I owe it to them to live it out - swapped destiny ain't cheap and I shudder to think what they may have done to procure this life for me.
And if... if this is some sort of trap from... there is no name for what it is a trap from. We never had a name for what we fought against, though sometimes it represented itself as a storm and other times as an old-fashioned turn-of-the-century carnivale-style Devil. If it is a trap from whatever that was, where the worst punishment they could come up with was to make me live a mundane, normal life... well I can think of worse ways to go!
So unless I actually hear from them again, I'm going to stop. Come into my dreams, send a message through another lucid dreamer, something like that if you need me.
And to those of you who lucid dream, let me know if you happen to see a skinny curly-haired kid in cowboy boots and/or Brown - not the COLOR brown, not a person NAMED brown, just the concept of brown in general - let me know!
When/if I started adventuring with Sol and Brown, we all *knew* that I was going to die alone at age 25. It wasn't my *destiny* or anything, it just... was. Shortly after they left me on the airfield, I started getting *real* friends, a real job, a real life... my 25th birthday came and I spent the next 365 days knowing that somewhere in this 25th year i was going to die.
It didn't happen.
Against all odds, I found an absolutely perfect wife living in a completely different State - enough like me and different from me to be not only my wife, but my best friend. My fate had somehow been swapped with the fate of someone else, that's the only explanation.
I think Sol and Brown did this for me.
If this is REAL LIFE, there's nothing I can do about it.
If this is a gift from Sol and Brown, I owe it to them to live it out - swapped destiny ain't cheap and I shudder to think what they may have done to procure this life for me.
And if... if this is some sort of trap from... there is no name for what it is a trap from. We never had a name for what we fought against, though sometimes it represented itself as a storm and other times as an old-fashioned turn-of-the-century carnivale-style Devil. If it is a trap from whatever that was, where the worst punishment they could come up with was to make me live a mundane, normal life... well I can think of worse ways to go!
So unless I actually hear from them again, I'm going to stop. Come into my dreams, send a message through another lucid dreamer, something like that if you need me.
And to those of you who lucid dream, let me know if you happen to see a skinny curly-haired kid in cowboy boots and/or Brown - not the COLOR brown, not a person NAMED brown, just the concept of brown in general - let me know!
