Salt for my wound

[captain_slinky]

And to top off my "Night Of A Thousand Maniacs" (see previous posts), last night was full of feverish half-dreams and fitfull nightmares, mostly about leaving Comcast only to get stuck in WORSE jobs (pushing stuff up a black dirt road to the top of a hill in the middle of nowhere) and khristle leaving me because I couldn't support the family any more.

...And then a slipped and fell in the bathroom, twisting my ankle pretty seriously. You know how every pain is amplified when you're sleepy and cranky.

And of course khristle is so sweet and understaning and caring as soon as I tell her about this she wants to make everything better... which just makes me start crying :(

I cry too much. Maybe I *do* need Welbutrin or something :( I'm just so afraid that any type of mood-altering medication would keep me from feeling *anything* the way I am meant to feel it, ya know? The low points in my life serve their purpose in that they make the high points just so much better! I don't want to miss that.

Comments

[spazzychic.livejournal.com]

... I feel ya. :/

On the other hand, if it can avoid stress/tears/nighmares, it might be worth trying.

[qthuny.livejournal.com]

dont mess with the mood altering drugs, most people i know who have been on them for any period of time changed so much.

plus from reading your journals i think you wife is sticking by you. i have a sneaking supsicion she loves you a lot. =P

[agelesseuridice.livejournal.com]

Guys have cycles just like women do, only their's aren't nice neat lunar cycles.

I'm not a big fan of anti-depressants, I think they are way over prescribed. If you need help and can take them for a few days or weeks until you feel "balanced" again, then I am all for them. Its just most take weeks or months before they become active.

I think if you can ride out the bad times by making jokes, inappropriate or not, and by venting here in a safe place, and with a little help from your friends, then I say skip the doctor.

Oh and I agree with gthuny, seems your gals love you one hell of a lot just the way you are right now, why change?

[captain-slinky.livejournal.com]

Thanks :) Yeah, I'm probably gonna stay away from the drugs and try to ride it out like I always have whenever I get my Period; Gilmore Girls, Ice Cream and Comic Books :)

[agelesseuridice.livejournal.com]

You forgot the popcorn and chocolate. Oh and those Payday Avalanches, perfect balance of chocolate and salt.

[supernovame.livejournal.com]

oddly enough, i would have totally agreed with everyone else before trying myself. now, it's amazing the differences I am starting to notice. you can read more in my journal, after I post more. :) but, if I had the chance to know how it was now, when I was a teen, I would have started taking it then, I am seriously feeling like I have been missing out on a lot and wish I had started sooner. I have heard horror stories of people during the balancing phase of trying to get the right drug and the right amount, but I never have any problems like that, no allergies, so it worked out very very nicely for me. it is surprising all the little changes i am enjoying.