captain_slinky | 126 - Better Faster

Well THAT was quick! I finally posted about my depression this morning and now here I am at 1 in the afternoon with POOF! OPTIMISM AND EXCITEMENT!!! How did I do it? Not entirely sure which one of these things did it, but it could have been any one of these things

Cooked breakfast for Molly and watched Super Hero cartoons with her - for two weeks now Molly has had to make do with bagels, toast and cereal for breakfast while I stumbled through my funk. This morning I made her a Sausage, Egg & Cheese Breakfast Burger and she loved it! Cooking makes me happy!
Got stuff done, plus some - We had a major water spill in the bedroom last night from our Air Conditioner overflowing, so this morning I had a lot of things to do; set up fans, bring in the dehumidifier, wash all the towels we used in our emergency clean-up... and then on top of that I also washed all our bedding and did an extra load of laundry to boot!
Did Stuff I've Been Meaning To Do Bu Haven't Done - Went to the Hardware Store and got some Weed-N-Seed so I can replace the mud-n-weeds in the back yard with luscious, tootsie-pleasing grass! Watered the lawn and even mowed our newly reclaimed side-yard that used to be full of shrubs and brush but now just gets full of creeping ivy every few days. This was the first time I have mowed there this year.
Listened to my "Relentlessly Upbeat" Mix on Spotify all morning long - Songs that no human can stay miserable through! Not sappy-happy songs, but more like upbeat, catchy, shout-along-with-the-music stuff! "Party Rock", "I Want To Get Better", "Best Day Of My Life", "Uptown Funk", "Black Or White", "Shut Up And Dance", "Cool Kids"... I made it when I was happy specifically to counteract when I am depressed, and it worked :)
Read about Disneyland And Felt Like I Deserved It - Seeing how happy it makes other people makes me happy and inspires me to try and get back there as soon as possible!
Brought up a picture of the pin from Tomorrowland and touched it. A lot. All over. This has been the silliest fear/despair that I've ever felt, this fear that if I touch the pin or think about it too much something that was supposed to happen wouldn't happen (Relationship: "It's Complicated"), but it DID happen! It just took longer than it does in the movie!
Discovered a tool that is going to make designing games SO MUCH EASIER called "Paperize" - it makes playtest versions of your card game for you based off of a CSV file, no Photoshop skills required! Check it out!

My day is now INFINITELY BETTER! I have energy to do stuff and accomplish stuff and I feel like I actually DESERVE this!

For my friends who are also stuck in that passionless depression, my advice to you is to go ahead and just DO SOMETHING. Do one of the things off your Shame List, see how many you can finish before you feel like you might deserve to do one of your cheer-up things!