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027 - Actual Trigger Warning, for me
Feb. 12th, 2016 01:22 pmI really thought I was over this stuff pretty well, since it had been a REALLY long time since I had an alcohol-related "Freak Out"... but today I learned just how wrong I was.
And cripes, I can't even go in to specifics :(
Let's just say that somebody who will never, ever read this post (they aren't even on the internet) has been getting drunk while they're supposed to be watching kids, and occasionally MY KID is one of those kids. This person is one of those "Yeah but *I* can drive when I've been drinking, I know when I've had too much" type of people. This person drives drunk on a daily basis, usually with at least one kid in the car along for the ride!
When I found out about this, I had to pull over (I was driving) and throw up. I am SO ANGRY!!!
I have been distancing myself from this person for a while now, based off of what little of his drinking that I knew about combined with a complete and total lack of shared interests. I had been doubting myself, trying to convince myself that I was overreacting again to yet another person who just likes to have a little drink every now and again, but it ends up my instincts were CORRECT!
And really, I should have known off of those instincts. I have surrounded myself with really good people - the best friends a person could ever hope for! They all know I'm a methyphobe, and they curtail their drinking when around me. In return, I do my best to make them happy that they're not drunk :) As an exchange, I've grown - I can now be around friends as they have, like, one beer or one mixed drink. As long as it's not "Drinking To Get Drunk", I can usually power through it and I've been pretty darned proud of myself!
I've also discovered, thanks to it's local legality, that I'm 100% okay with people getting stoned on pot when they are around me. Well, not *stoned*, but getting a slight and happy buzz going for themselves? I have friends who smoke as an alternative to opioid pain relief and yeah that's totally okay. Pot smokers are 100% of the time (as far as my experience goes) Happy, Sleepy, Hungry and Fun. They're never spinning that Alcoholic Roulette Wheel to see if they're going to get Happy, Sad, Angry, Stupid, Sick, Belligerent or Violent this time around. I may not smoke WITH YOU, my stoney friends, but I'm okay with you!
This person, though... maybe it's the fact that kids are involved, maybe it's that I trusted them with my own kid, maybe it's that I didn't listen to my gut instinct from the very start... but SOMETHING about this situation has me physically ill :(
And cripes, I can't even go in to specifics :(
Let's just say that somebody who will never, ever read this post (they aren't even on the internet) has been getting drunk while they're supposed to be watching kids, and occasionally MY KID is one of those kids. This person is one of those "Yeah but *I* can drive when I've been drinking, I know when I've had too much" type of people. This person drives drunk on a daily basis, usually with at least one kid in the car along for the ride!
When I found out about this, I had to pull over (I was driving) and throw up. I am SO ANGRY!!!
I have been distancing myself from this person for a while now, based off of what little of his drinking that I knew about combined with a complete and total lack of shared interests. I had been doubting myself, trying to convince myself that I was overreacting again to yet another person who just likes to have a little drink every now and again, but it ends up my instincts were CORRECT!
And really, I should have known off of those instincts. I have surrounded myself with really good people - the best friends a person could ever hope for! They all know I'm a methyphobe, and they curtail their drinking when around me. In return, I do my best to make them happy that they're not drunk :) As an exchange, I've grown - I can now be around friends as they have, like, one beer or one mixed drink. As long as it's not "Drinking To Get Drunk", I can usually power through it and I've been pretty darned proud of myself!
I've also discovered, thanks to it's local legality, that I'm 100% okay with people getting stoned on pot when they are around me. Well, not *stoned*, but getting a slight and happy buzz going for themselves? I have friends who smoke as an alternative to opioid pain relief and yeah that's totally okay. Pot smokers are 100% of the time (as far as my experience goes) Happy, Sleepy, Hungry and Fun. They're never spinning that Alcoholic Roulette Wheel to see if they're going to get Happy, Sad, Angry, Stupid, Sick, Belligerent or Violent this time around. I may not smoke WITH YOU, my stoney friends, but I'm okay with you!
This person, though... maybe it's the fact that kids are involved, maybe it's that I trusted them with my own kid, maybe it's that I didn't listen to my gut instinct from the very start... but SOMETHING about this situation has me physically ill :(
